Do you feel like you're in control of your own world, or that the world is in control of you?
Your answer to this question says a lot about your perspective and outlook on life. It might also say a lot about your karma, if you believe in such things.
Do what you do, and do it well.
We all have insecurities. But it is up to each of us to overcome these issues, and live for the rest of the positive ones.
You can find inner peace; it is right inside of you! All you have to do is seek it out, and it will come fourth for you. When all you have to do is close your eyes and exhale slowly in order to feel relaxed and enjoy a clear mind, you will know you have found it.
Let go of your worries. They won't let go for you. They will hold onto you, for as long as you hold onto them. Live and let live. Worrying won't change things: action will. Decide what things really bother you, and plan a course of action on how to cope or deal with them, or on what you could do to make positive changes to make the negatives more positive for you. Go out and live your life: don't let it live you! It's amazing what even small things can do to create a huge impact on your life, your mood, and your outlook on your daily life as well as long-term.
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Something close to religious or spiritual
This post was moved here from my old Livejournal. Some updated points are in italics.
Why do people put their hands over their hearts when they pledge allegiance?
I have what I might consider to be a rather unique theory on a religious perspective, and I wanted to put it down in writing. Why? Because I think it's a very good theory, and I don't want any other factors in life to influence it in its raw form right now, while it's fresh on my mind.
I was raised in the South, around Southern Baptists. That's right - right in the middle of the bible belt. My family didn't necessarily go to church, but they always encouraged me to at least go to Sunday school, which I did. I did some bible reading. Eventually I started attending church services, where I sat and listened and took things in. I went to a couple of friends' churches, one being of a non-denominational basis, the other another Baptist, but each with their own perspectives on things. I read and observed from others around me, as I tend to do, and have pieced things together in ways that made sense to me, and felt right to me.
There are so many religions in the world. Who can say which is truly right and which is wrong? Most of us believe that which we were taught in our upbringing, or that which influenced us the most strongly when we learned about it. Does that mean that others around the world are wrong because they did the same things, yet ended up believing in what may a totally opposite religion than your own? I think not.
I'm not going to talk about the bible much, or any other religious books or teachings. I'm not a scholar, nor have I studied biblical histories. But I will say this. I do feel there are some divine words in those pages, but they were written by man, and man is prone to errors, opinions, and personal missions. I don't doubt that governing bodies influenced words that were driven into the minds of the masses in order to impose control.
I know it's said that it's proven that the bible is still basically as it was originally written, even after all the translations and such. But still, it was written by man at the time it was written.
I feel that I can read the words handed down from generation to generation, and take what words of wisdom I can from it, and combine them with my own knowledge and experience, to make a better way: one that is true for myself.
I hate it when people just latch hold of something religions because they can't explain it, just because they want to continue to believe it, or are too afraid to stop believing it.
How did our delicate cycle of life on this planet come to be as it is? From the result of what? I don't know, and feel that maybe I'm not meant to know, the answer to so many questions. But I just can't see how delicate, beautiful flowers or exotic tropical creatures, just for examples of life, could have begun this process except for some reason divine.
I don't think people were meant to ever fully understand the spiritual realm, nor that we ever really will. I do believe there is such a thing. I find it to be a miraculous event that life as we know it came into existence and that the universe down to the very world we live in hangs in such perfect yet precarious balance. I don't think things like this occurred out of some random chance. I believe there was some meaning, some purposeful creation, or some greater being(s) responsible for all. I can hardly fathom the infinite expanse known as space, much less begin to wonder how it got there. I feel that if I ever need to know, I'll find out.
I don't necessarily feel that everything hangs in balance due to some divine intervention; the world revolves and evolves of its own accord, because everything in it is created of the divine. Nature balances itself. When I sometimes say everything happens for a reason, it's not always meant as something karmic in meaning: things do certainly happen in reaction to other things happening.
Up to this point have been my opinions and viewpoints to lead you to this theory. Now for the theory itself. What if, what if.
What if there isn't a "heaven" or a "hell," and that the Gaia theory holds some truth? Well, from the same perspective as that Final Fantasy movie depicted. This theory http://www.oceansonline.com/gaiaho.htm is a bit more hefty of reading than I care to delve into. Let's keep it simple, here.
I like the name "God" for whatever it is that is greater than me, that through some eventually, put me here on this earth.
I think there is a good possibility that when your life "flashes before your eyes" when you die, it's passing by more than just your own eyes. This could be when you pass on all the knowledge and experiences throughout your life back into the spirit from which you came. Every moment, recorded, played back just like a movie, to be absorbed, analyzed, and ... well, I really don't know what else. I'm not God! Maybe it's used to help perfect "karma," where you could have been a better person if you didn't have this flaw, or that. Maybe the millions of combinations of people and personalities help construct a growing knowledge and understanding of the human capacity. I know that's true for each of us individually, at least. Can you imagine how many years it would take to see just how advanced we can become, and to learn all there is to learn? I don't think I was meant to understand it all. For all I can guess, maybe this knowledge will help make a better race on some other side of the universe, or something weird like that. (Where do you think all the inspirations for those sci-fi movies come from?)
Wow, that was a meander. Anyway, when people state that God is omnipotent, have you ever stopped to wonder how? Well, perhaps that's how.
I have always been skeptical about the idea that people are rewarded or punished based on their deeds. I think people drive their own life, and that we are influenced by other people and surroundings to arrive at where we are. But people are like sheep: they need something for guidance and assuredness, so they have become comfortable with the not quite tangible, yet solid view they have of a God.
I think that maybe, just maybe, each and every person has a little bit of God (or the spirit of the world or whatever it is) within them. When people pray for guidance, they are really focusing within on that which they have been given (a reason why might some people say that everyone has a little bit of God in them). When you close your eyes and meditate or focus and listen for answers, sure - maybe they're divine. But I don't think they zap down out of the sky into your mind, or anything telepathic. I think the answers are right there within your own mind, and have been the whole time. It's that inner voice. It's your soul. It's the spirit within each one of us. When you seek answers, this is where they come from. They are banked there, and perhaps your "soul" contains the wisdom of ages and you just don't know it. When you shut up and listen, sometimes you learn a lot.
Why do people put their hands over their hearts when they pledge allegiance?
I have what I might consider to be a rather unique theory on a religious perspective, and I wanted to put it down in writing. Why? Because I think it's a very good theory, and I don't want any other factors in life to influence it in its raw form right now, while it's fresh on my mind.
I was raised in the South, around Southern Baptists. That's right - right in the middle of the bible belt. My family didn't necessarily go to church, but they always encouraged me to at least go to Sunday school, which I did. I did some bible reading. Eventually I started attending church services, where I sat and listened and took things in. I went to a couple of friends' churches, one being of a non-denominational basis, the other another Baptist, but each with their own perspectives on things. I read and observed from others around me, as I tend to do, and have pieced things together in ways that made sense to me, and felt right to me.
There are so many religions in the world. Who can say which is truly right and which is wrong? Most of us believe that which we were taught in our upbringing, or that which influenced us the most strongly when we learned about it. Does that mean that others around the world are wrong because they did the same things, yet ended up believing in what may a totally opposite religion than your own? I think not.
I'm not going to talk about the bible much, or any other religious books or teachings. I'm not a scholar, nor have I studied biblical histories. But I will say this. I do feel there are some divine words in those pages, but they were written by man, and man is prone to errors, opinions, and personal missions. I don't doubt that governing bodies influenced words that were driven into the minds of the masses in order to impose control.
I know it's said that it's proven that the bible is still basically as it was originally written, even after all the translations and such. But still, it was written by man at the time it was written.
I feel that I can read the words handed down from generation to generation, and take what words of wisdom I can from it, and combine them with my own knowledge and experience, to make a better way: one that is true for myself.
I hate it when people just latch hold of something religions because they can't explain it, just because they want to continue to believe it, or are too afraid to stop believing it.
How did our delicate cycle of life on this planet come to be as it is? From the result of what? I don't know, and feel that maybe I'm not meant to know, the answer to so many questions. But I just can't see how delicate, beautiful flowers or exotic tropical creatures, just for examples of life, could have begun this process except for some reason divine.
I don't think people were meant to ever fully understand the spiritual realm, nor that we ever really will. I do believe there is such a thing. I find it to be a miraculous event that life as we know it came into existence and that the universe down to the very world we live in hangs in such perfect yet precarious balance. I don't think things like this occurred out of some random chance. I believe there was some meaning, some purposeful creation, or some greater being(s) responsible for all. I can hardly fathom the infinite expanse known as space, much less begin to wonder how it got there. I feel that if I ever need to know, I'll find out.
I don't necessarily feel that everything hangs in balance due to some divine intervention; the world revolves and evolves of its own accord, because everything in it is created of the divine. Nature balances itself. When I sometimes say everything happens for a reason, it's not always meant as something karmic in meaning: things do certainly happen in reaction to other things happening.
Up to this point have been my opinions and viewpoints to lead you to this theory. Now for the theory itself. What if, what if.
What if there isn't a "heaven" or a "hell," and that the Gaia theory holds some truth? Well, from the same perspective as that Final Fantasy movie depicted. This theory http://www.oceansonline.com/gaiaho.htm is a bit more hefty of reading than I care to delve into. Let's keep it simple, here.
I like the name "God" for whatever it is that is greater than me, that through some eventually, put me here on this earth.
I think there is a good possibility that when your life "flashes before your eyes" when you die, it's passing by more than just your own eyes. This could be when you pass on all the knowledge and experiences throughout your life back into the spirit from which you came. Every moment, recorded, played back just like a movie, to be absorbed, analyzed, and ... well, I really don't know what else. I'm not God! Maybe it's used to help perfect "karma," where you could have been a better person if you didn't have this flaw, or that. Maybe the millions of combinations of people and personalities help construct a growing knowledge and understanding of the human capacity. I know that's true for each of us individually, at least. Can you imagine how many years it would take to see just how advanced we can become, and to learn all there is to learn? I don't think I was meant to understand it all. For all I can guess, maybe this knowledge will help make a better race on some other side of the universe, or something weird like that. (Where do you think all the inspirations for those sci-fi movies come from?)
Wow, that was a meander. Anyway, when people state that God is omnipotent, have you ever stopped to wonder how? Well, perhaps that's how.
I have always been skeptical about the idea that people are rewarded or punished based on their deeds. I think people drive their own life, and that we are influenced by other people and surroundings to arrive at where we are. But people are like sheep: they need something for guidance and assuredness, so they have become comfortable with the not quite tangible, yet solid view they have of a God.
I think that maybe, just maybe, each and every person has a little bit of God (or the spirit of the world or whatever it is) within them. When people pray for guidance, they are really focusing within on that which they have been given (a reason why might some people say that everyone has a little bit of God in them). When you close your eyes and meditate or focus and listen for answers, sure - maybe they're divine. But I don't think they zap down out of the sky into your mind, or anything telepathic. I think the answers are right there within your own mind, and have been the whole time. It's that inner voice. It's your soul. It's the spirit within each one of us. When you seek answers, this is where they come from. They are banked there, and perhaps your "soul" contains the wisdom of ages and you just don't know it. When you shut up and listen, sometimes you learn a lot.
Monday, December 26, 2005
Focused Muscle Relaxation
I got so frustrated at my dad 2 nights ago that I told him he needed to learn how to relax. I was shocked and amazed that he didn't take it poorly. I know he has no clue how to do it, so when I came across a health tip on the Human Resources website at work today, it reminded me of this and I decided to do a little search. It lead me into some great articles at About.com that I'm printing off to give him. One section on Progressive Muscle Relaxation seemed to be lacking and I have better advice to offer, so I typed up the following. Rather than just delete the document when done with it, I thought I'd just paste my own little snippet below, for fun. :P Yes, yes.. I know... I have "fun" writing up help guides and documentation... sheesh, what is this world coming to... *snickers*
No, you don't have to do Yoga to gain all of the benefits. You too can do simple
Relaxation Technique
from home, at the office, or anytime, anywhere!
With practice, you can will your body to relax, just by the power of your mind. Close your eyes and sit, stand, or lie comfortably depending on where you are (you can do this anytime, and anywhere you happen to be). Exhale a long, slow breath, concentrating on clearing your mind and focusing on the task of deliberate relaxation. Then, begin focusing your concentration on your physical body, starting at the very top of your head, and rolling down, through the muscles in your face, lips, jaws, neck, etc., making a conscious effort to release any strainful position you may be holding onto, and relax all your muscles. Move your way down through your shoulders, arms, and hands. Then move down your chest, abdomen, stomach, and continue on down through your legs, to your feet. By the time you reach the bottom, every muscle in your body should be at ease, providing you with the perfect opportunity for relaxation.
By this point, you are now meditating, and you didn’t even know it yet! If you can sit still with a clear, relaxed mind like this for several minutes with your eyes closed, you will open them and feel refreshed and renewed, and free from stress.
Now, after you have achieved complete relaxation of the body, relax your mind. Focus on nothing. If you find that random thoughts enter your mind, acknowledge this, then let them go again to clear your mind entirely. This may be easier to do while listening to soft, relaxing (particularly wordless) music.
Try this anytime you feel tension beginning to build up. It is easy to clench your muscles and cause physical stress to your body – doing this can alleviate headaches, shoulder pains, and stomach, leg, or arm cramps, even, as well as a multitude of other stressful pains and tensions.
No, you don't have to do Yoga to gain all of the benefits. You too can do simple
Relaxation Technique
from home, at the office, or anytime, anywhere!
With practice, you can will your body to relax, just by the power of your mind. Close your eyes and sit, stand, or lie comfortably depending on where you are (you can do this anytime, and anywhere you happen to be). Exhale a long, slow breath, concentrating on clearing your mind and focusing on the task of deliberate relaxation. Then, begin focusing your concentration on your physical body, starting at the very top of your head, and rolling down, through the muscles in your face, lips, jaws, neck, etc., making a conscious effort to release any strainful position you may be holding onto, and relax all your muscles. Move your way down through your shoulders, arms, and hands. Then move down your chest, abdomen, stomach, and continue on down through your legs, to your feet. By the time you reach the bottom, every muscle in your body should be at ease, providing you with the perfect opportunity for relaxation.
By this point, you are now meditating, and you didn’t even know it yet! If you can sit still with a clear, relaxed mind like this for several minutes with your eyes closed, you will open them and feel refreshed and renewed, and free from stress.
Now, after you have achieved complete relaxation of the body, relax your mind. Focus on nothing. If you find that random thoughts enter your mind, acknowledge this, then let them go again to clear your mind entirely. This may be easier to do while listening to soft, relaxing (particularly wordless) music.
Try this anytime you feel tension beginning to build up. It is easy to clench your muscles and cause physical stress to your body – doing this can alleviate headaches, shoulder pains, and stomach, leg, or arm cramps, even, as well as a multitude of other stressful pains and tensions.
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
What is this, some kind of calendar advice for the year or something!?
Just get to the point. Cut to the chase; get past the filler; what's the bottom line? A clear understanding gives better perspective on any situation, and less room for misinterpretation, false assumptions, overexpectations, and the like. Knowledge is the key. Find out what you're working with first, then everything else can fall into place.
Why ask why? To better understand. Don't be afraid to ask rather than assume.
You can learn a lot without ever even asking. Just listen once in a while. And this doesn't always mean to listen with just your ears.
What is life without love? Merely existance as an incomplete half of a whole. Learn to love, and to be loved. Life, shared, is so much more fulfilling.
Drive or be driven. Live life, or let it live you. Don't be afraid to take the initiative and make changes. If you don't knock on opportunity's door, it sure won't come walking up to yours and put a free lottery check in your hand out of the blue. Do what you know you need to do.
Listen to your instincts; they're usually right. Learn to trust them. Your little inner voice knows experiences and knowledge your conscious mind may be too busy or stubborn to listen to sometimes, but your subconscious mind won't let you forget. Don't ignore what you know you should listen to.
Sometimes, you need to just open up your mind and heart, walk blindly into the future on a tightrope through a black hole, and then lend your attention to your experiences and knowledge: they will guide you forward if you let them, and nothing else will matter. If you set your sights on a goal, focus on it and work towards it consistently, you'll get there. It takes faith that you can obtain whatever you set your mind to, persistance even when it's tough, and taking the initiative to conquer whatever obstacles are between you and your goal. Every human is capable of this, but not every one is willing to believe it or do what is necessary. Live life, or let it live you? The choice is yours. Life is what you make it.
Learn from your experiences. Every situation in life presents an opportunity to learn something, either about yourself or others. You don't have to experience every situation to learn from it, either; just be observant, and pay attention to those around you, and their lives too. Learning about others teaches one much about themselves sometimes, too.
Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. What goes around comes around. If you're selfish and unyielding, chances are you'll miss out on receiving just as much as you fail to give. Learn how to be warm and open, thoughtful and caring, considerate and understanding, and others will return these favors to you, as well. Sometimes it takes a spark to start a fire. Show the initiative and be open first; don't wait for someone else to do it. Don't live in anticipation of the world around you. Make your own life happen.
Find out what you're good at, and do it well. Know and understand both your strengths and weaknesses. Don't be afraid to admit either of them, and don't try to fool yourself into believing that you can ignore either. You can paint a tiger black, hiding his stripes, but he will always have claws and teeth. He can learn to control or use those to his benefit, but he IS always going to be a tiger!
The older you get, the more you should know about yourself. Incorporate it into your life, your thinking, your actions, and your reactions. Know your strengths and weaknesses, and you will be able to work with or past them.
I don't really know that things happen for a reason. But I do know that everything that happens leads us to where we are. We build upon all our past experiences, both good and bad, as they make us into who we are.
Why ask why? To better understand. Don't be afraid to ask rather than assume.
You can learn a lot without ever even asking. Just listen once in a while. And this doesn't always mean to listen with just your ears.
What is life without love? Merely existance as an incomplete half of a whole. Learn to love, and to be loved. Life, shared, is so much more fulfilling.
Drive or be driven. Live life, or let it live you. Don't be afraid to take the initiative and make changes. If you don't knock on opportunity's door, it sure won't come walking up to yours and put a free lottery check in your hand out of the blue. Do what you know you need to do.
Listen to your instincts; they're usually right. Learn to trust them. Your little inner voice knows experiences and knowledge your conscious mind may be too busy or stubborn to listen to sometimes, but your subconscious mind won't let you forget. Don't ignore what you know you should listen to.
Sometimes, you need to just open up your mind and heart, walk blindly into the future on a tightrope through a black hole, and then lend your attention to your experiences and knowledge: they will guide you forward if you let them, and nothing else will matter. If you set your sights on a goal, focus on it and work towards it consistently, you'll get there. It takes faith that you can obtain whatever you set your mind to, persistance even when it's tough, and taking the initiative to conquer whatever obstacles are between you and your goal. Every human is capable of this, but not every one is willing to believe it or do what is necessary. Live life, or let it live you? The choice is yours. Life is what you make it.
Learn from your experiences. Every situation in life presents an opportunity to learn something, either about yourself or others. You don't have to experience every situation to learn from it, either; just be observant, and pay attention to those around you, and their lives too. Learning about others teaches one much about themselves sometimes, too.
Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. What goes around comes around. If you're selfish and unyielding, chances are you'll miss out on receiving just as much as you fail to give. Learn how to be warm and open, thoughtful and caring, considerate and understanding, and others will return these favors to you, as well. Sometimes it takes a spark to start a fire. Show the initiative and be open first; don't wait for someone else to do it. Don't live in anticipation of the world around you. Make your own life happen.
Find out what you're good at, and do it well. Know and understand both your strengths and weaknesses. Don't be afraid to admit either of them, and don't try to fool yourself into believing that you can ignore either. You can paint a tiger black, hiding his stripes, but he will always have claws and teeth. He can learn to control or use those to his benefit, but he IS always going to be a tiger!
The older you get, the more you should know about yourself. Incorporate it into your life, your thinking, your actions, and your reactions. Know your strengths and weaknesses, and you will be able to work with or past them.
I don't really know that things happen for a reason. But I do know that everything that happens leads us to where we are. We build upon all our past experiences, both good and bad, as they make us into who we are.
Friday, February 18, 2005
Life Lessons
Things I've learned, or things I believe, that make life easier when kept in mind:
- Never expect a guy to change. If you're not happy with him the way he is, you'll never be happy with him. He won't change, and it's unfair to expect him to. Get used to this and accept it, or move on, while you still have time to decide.
- There is always a silver lining, if you make one. Focusing on what's positive instead of what's negative helps make life less stressful.
- Different is good. There's a definitely a line between different, and just plain weird.
- Listen to your instincts. You have them for a reason. They're almost always right. And you can never learn to trust them if you don't start trying at some point!
Things I've learned about Me that help me understand myself:
- I am different. And not just different, just like everybody else... who always somehow end up being exactly the same, in trying to be different. I don't try to be, I just am. It doesn't jive with everyone and I prefer it that way.
- I prefer smaller more personal groups of friends rather than large social groups.
- Always keep these in the medicine cabinet, and I'll be good to go: advil, neosporin, eyedrops, and lots of bandaids.
- Never put a perm in my hair again.
- Always do things, or at least make a note, when I'm thinking about it. Later I'll be far too busy or distracted or will have moved on to something else and won't remember!
- Never expect a guy to change. If you're not happy with him the way he is, you'll never be happy with him. He won't change, and it's unfair to expect him to. Get used to this and accept it, or move on, while you still have time to decide.
- There is always a silver lining, if you make one. Focusing on what's positive instead of what's negative helps make life less stressful.
- Different is good. There's a definitely a line between different, and just plain weird.
- Listen to your instincts. You have them for a reason. They're almost always right. And you can never learn to trust them if you don't start trying at some point!
Things I've learned about Me that help me understand myself:
- I am different. And not just different, just like everybody else... who always somehow end up being exactly the same, in trying to be different. I don't try to be, I just am. It doesn't jive with everyone and I prefer it that way.
- I prefer smaller more personal groups of friends rather than large social groups.
- Always keep these in the medicine cabinet, and I'll be good to go: advil, neosporin, eyedrops, and lots of bandaids.
- Never put a perm in my hair again.
- Always do things, or at least make a note, when I'm thinking about it. Later I'll be far too busy or distracted or will have moved on to something else and won't remember!
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
What kind of person are you?
What kind of person are you?
Drive, or be driven?
Grab hold of the reigns and take control, or let the horse drag you along?
I guess you get the point already. But can you really compare these examples to your life, or to you as a person in your everyday way of dealing with life and its situations? Or how about your overall life, and the direction in which it is heading? I used to be the kind of person who just lived life, taking whatever may come. When I grew up, I realized that life doesn't come to you. You have to go and get it.
If you want something... really, really want something... you have to set your goals on it and decide what steps lie between you and your goal, and take them, one at a time. Noone can do it for you, and you will probably never accomplish that goal unless you keep it in sights.
You have to be happy with you before anyone else can ever be expected to be. You can easily have control and direction, confidence and ... well, I suppose just self-esteem in general, if you just make a decided effort. You can do all of these things without arrogence, spite, or other undesirable personal traits. Clarity of mind and spirit can leave you refreshed and open to new ways of thinking and understanding yourself and the world around you. Even if you don't believe in Karma in some shape, form, or fashion, it is a good practice to live by: treat others as you yourself would like to be treated, but don't ever let anyone take advantage of you.
Today's soapbox rant was brought to you by... no particular reason!
Drive, or be driven?
Grab hold of the reigns and take control, or let the horse drag you along?
I guess you get the point already. But can you really compare these examples to your life, or to you as a person in your everyday way of dealing with life and its situations? Or how about your overall life, and the direction in which it is heading? I used to be the kind of person who just lived life, taking whatever may come. When I grew up, I realized that life doesn't come to you. You have to go and get it.
If you want something... really, really want something... you have to set your goals on it and decide what steps lie between you and your goal, and take them, one at a time. Noone can do it for you, and you will probably never accomplish that goal unless you keep it in sights.
You have to be happy with you before anyone else can ever be expected to be. You can easily have control and direction, confidence and ... well, I suppose just self-esteem in general, if you just make a decided effort. You can do all of these things without arrogence, spite, or other undesirable personal traits. Clarity of mind and spirit can leave you refreshed and open to new ways of thinking and understanding yourself and the world around you. Even if you don't believe in Karma in some shape, form, or fashion, it is a good practice to live by: treat others as you yourself would like to be treated, but don't ever let anyone take advantage of you.
Today's soapbox rant was brought to you by... no particular reason!
Thursday, February 05, 2004
Observation of the day
"Before I can be more than what I am I must first know what I am."
I strive to be more than that which I've been handed. Not because what I've been handed is not good, but because I want to better myself and not fall under to the ways of thinking of my upbringing, simply because they are all I know. I want to learn, experience, and truly know for myself that the ideals and practices that I call mine are mine because they ARE mine, not because my parents or anyone else gave them to me. I refuse to be a common "Sheep" and follow the rest of the herd blindly.
I am not bitter in this quest. Sometimes others in my life may have become bitter as they realize I will stand up and be my own person, and not bend to their will (such as my father, and my ex), but this will not stop me. I will not be hateful, mean, or vengeful against people such as these. It really pains me to see youth react to this same situation in such ways. They become rude, crude, and just plain selfish. I am thankful that I did not boldly make this move during my youth, but instead have slowly developed my ideals and have meekly let them be known throughout my life as I have grown up. It may have delayed the inevitable in doing what we all must do, standing up and facing our parents when/if they don't like the way we do something. But maybe at least it gave us the chance to bond better than we could have under other circumstances, and it gave them time to accept changes as I have grown up.
I tried to be as gentle with them in this process as possible and they have chosen not to grow, change, or accept yet, but it's not my fault if they don't and I refuse to be held down by it. I now am the better person for learning, understanding, changing, and doing what is best for me. Sadly, you can offer this idea to others but you can't force them to accept it.
They'll get there eventually. They always do.
I strive to be more than that which I've been handed. Not because what I've been handed is not good, but because I want to better myself and not fall under to the ways of thinking of my upbringing, simply because they are all I know. I want to learn, experience, and truly know for myself that the ideals and practices that I call mine are mine because they ARE mine, not because my parents or anyone else gave them to me. I refuse to be a common "Sheep" and follow the rest of the herd blindly.
I am not bitter in this quest. Sometimes others in my life may have become bitter as they realize I will stand up and be my own person, and not bend to their will (such as my father, and my ex), but this will not stop me. I will not be hateful, mean, or vengeful against people such as these. It really pains me to see youth react to this same situation in such ways. They become rude, crude, and just plain selfish. I am thankful that I did not boldly make this move during my youth, but instead have slowly developed my ideals and have meekly let them be known throughout my life as I have grown up. It may have delayed the inevitable in doing what we all must do, standing up and facing our parents when/if they don't like the way we do something. But maybe at least it gave us the chance to bond better than we could have under other circumstances, and it gave them time to accept changes as I have grown up.
I tried to be as gentle with them in this process as possible and they have chosen not to grow, change, or accept yet, but it's not my fault if they don't and I refuse to be held down by it. I now am the better person for learning, understanding, changing, and doing what is best for me. Sadly, you can offer this idea to others but you can't force them to accept it.
They'll get there eventually. They always do.
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